Dear Love

“If I ever talked to love, the conversation...would go like this”

Dear...Love,

Its been a while. A long while.

 Love…where have you been. I realize now that you've been used and abused. When people say your name many of them have no idea who you are. Or the effect you bring. They use your name in vain because they haven't ever felt your presence. They haven't endured the peaks and lows of the journeys we've taken. Or the relationship we've had.

But Love I won't forget the pain you caused. I won't forget the nights of agony and tears. But out of our hard times I won't forget you. Because Love you had me screaming dreaming, feening and searching for the meaning of your name. And out of it I didn’t get anything but a reverse sign. Love you told me to go all the way the fuck back to square one. Not passing go, not 3 steps back, but back to where I began. And I was frustrated and angry at the dumb stuff you did because I knew it wasn’t you. Love you used to take care, share and stare into my eyes. You used to heal the maimed pain you caused but now you’re gone. You've drifted away once again. 

I want to get to know you again Love. From the beginning. From…Hello. I want to start back at those cheap super sized dates, and debates of who misses who more Love. Back to you telling me your name and having it skip through my mind all day on the squares of possibility.

There's so much I want to tell you Love but I'm afraid of the pain you used to cause. And everyone put you in the fairy tale category with Santa Clause and the Easter Bunny, so when I told them what you did… They said you weren't real. They said you were a figment of my imagination. And a letter to you would be thrown into all that North Pole mail… But what they don’t know is Love you are more than a person with a home address or cell phone, you are an emotion. A life altering experience that doesn’t lie like Redbull’s false wings, but helps us fly to the peaks of the sky, and though we fall, we have risen to the greatest sensation. And if we die, it will be from our journey of you; be it in peace or sorrow it will be from you…Love.

I know your busy skipping from heart to heart so I’ll leave you with this letter. And if you ever find a worthy heart and being to reveal yourself to me again...just know that I’ll be here. Patient. Patiently waiting to see you again.

Signed,

A Believer

-Moises Seraphin